At first I was sad to see the post, it brought up the fact that I'm a loser (Loser Lisa, nice alliteration, don't ya think?) and can't even prove that I'm a big enough AB fan to get the opportunity to cook with him. Then I see she's model and lives in LA. What chance did this pudgy, pasty, non-pretty mountain girl have to be there? Zip.At this point, I admit to tearing up a bit. Because that's when I realize no matter how great my video was, no matter what I told the producers, no mater if I have a blog and fansite for AB, I had absolutely no chance at winning because I'm not a model and I'm not pretty. I bet even if Alton had a hand in choosing the the person, I'd still not win.
I was telling my friend L about how sad I was. And as we IMed, I started to see something. In my vision of how this was going to happen, I was expecting to see the Be Square facilities. Kinda liked going behind the Wizard's curtain. In my delusion, Alton would let me see all of the ins and outs of the place, talk with me about TV production and cook with me. Then he'd let me interview him for the blog, because he would think this silly fangirl site was cool.
In this person's post it says she's headed to Florida not Georgia. So she's not getting to see it all. No studio. No Good Eats set. No behind the magic. None of it.
But, she is still getting to cook with AB. And that still hurts a bit because I want that opportunity so much. I want to tell Alton how much I appreciate all of his shows and what he has taught me. I know I can tell him that at an event or book signing, but I want to show him too.
My friend L pointed out that I would probably have been disappointed to learn it was going to be filmed in Florida. She's right to some extent. I wouldn't be disappointed to cook with AB. But I would have been a little disappointed that I wouldn't be seeing his studio. Despite any remote hint of disappointment, the joy of cooking with AB would have wiped it away.
Am I still sad? Yeah. Am I still a bit teary about it? Yeah, I'm a bit a tender heart... sorry.
But, I'm trying to look at it with the glass is half-full mindset. Since the thing is being filmed in Florida and not at Alton's place maybe, just maybe, it wasn't meant to be. It wasn't the right time for me to win. Maybe I got passed over for a better opportunity? Who knows? I'm praying for that chance to cook with AB someday.
Will they ever be answered? Only time will tell. I do know, I would give up only most anything for the chance. Until then, I'll have to resigned to being one of the faces in the huge crowds that gets a few minutes of his time. Or this is a huge sign to give up my pipedream of cooking with Alton.
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I read that blog too. Even though she won, she had all this bad luck stuff happen to her.
So, she's gonna cook, but without her makeup, her clothes..she said she's gonna feel "gross."
HAHAHAHAHA!! Karma, baby!!
She may have won, but she ain't getting it her way!
I read that, also.
And, hey... never forget that the only people who never have that kind of disappointment in their lives are the ones with no aspirations.
In other words, hold on to that "pipe dream". With that alone, you are ahead of the more casual fans, like me. I am not disappointed to have missed the opportunity because I haven't aspired to do that. (I didn't even know about the FN special contest.)
Besides, now that I know you have such big dreams, I know that if you DO get to cook with him, I can be there vicariously through you, via this blog and through flickr. :-)
Thanks :)
I promise everyone when I get to cook with Alton, I'll share as much and as many of the moments as possible.
If it's a FN deal, that catty gay producer with the huge nose probably had the final say. He wants a girl he can go shopping with afterward.
Who did win? Does she exemplify any kind of bubbly personality? If not, Alton's wit could be a bit overpowering, and the whole special could flop.
I hate the direction FN is taking AB anyway. I wish he had his own channel. I miss the green cookie fiend and W.
I do not know anything about the winner other than what she wrote on her blog.
I don't want to say anything mean or nasty about her (that karma thing, dontcha know) or sound like a whiny loser, but I couldn't tell anything about her level of AB fanness from the blog post.
theangrystar.livejournal.com
Maybe she a kickass video and mine sucked. Maybe she is a HUGE fan as they said was required to get to cook with your favorite host.
I read her blog post last and also follow the link to her website. I see she's worked as a baker, worked for Nickelodeon, worked on a music video as a animator and is a lipsync artist. Makes you wonder if FN didn't take that in consideration when they picked the person plus the model bit. It seems like they picked a "actress" instead of us average people.
Don't give up on your dreams, Lisa... 'cause dream do come true.
According to her profile here: http://angrystar.deviantart.com/ she's from Savannah, GA.. so maybe that had something to do with her selection.
She's kinda dumb though.. surely she realizes a TV show is going to have people there to do her makeup and whatnot. So her ridiculous and narcissistic worries can cease.
Obviously I'M not worried about karma :oP
I think the fact that she's an actress/model/whatever was what hurt so much. There was no way for someone like me to win. FN did want me because I'm none of those things.
I just watch Alton's shows, try his recipes and have this silly fangirl blog and website. :P
Alton would appreciate you to death if he came across your blogs.. the internet is just so vast.
And before you write yourself off completely.. you've seen Ina Garten, right? hehe...
I think more than anything they probably figured she was comfortable in front of a camera being a hack actress and all.
You're going to make me cry (in a good way, lol). What can I say, I'm a softy :)
Hugs to everyone for the support. You don't know how much I appreicate it and what it means! :D
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